Thursday, December 28, 2006

part 2 or and furthermore.....

I havent read tristram shandy yet but i am halfway through the movie and I have discovered a hypertext version of tristram shandy on the web and started reading a couple of chapters and read some papers written by students and professionals about this novel and read the intro to a 1964 edition to another one of that authors works and basically the gist seems to be that it is voiced in the first person narrative ad he is trying to tell the story of his life but , as life and as the process of thinking and as the busy modern world goes it becomes not muddled for it does flow really well just that it flows in many different areas in one stream of consciousness which gives the reader alot of information but takes quite awhile before he is even born which I think happens 1/3 of the way through the book and so far this is how the movie works as well being both a movie version of the book and its characters and also a movie about how the narrative works first the character becomes sidetracked then the scene ends and you are now off into the life of the acor the actor also not having time to live his present life having been made all the more complicated with the birth of his son and soon the actors "real life" starts to mirror the main charater of the book whom this actor is playing and since my own life is seeming one big series of crashing waves with the tide coming in and the tide coming out and I am just trying not to drown but also not getting out or even changing position of my location in the path of the ever changing ebb and flow of the tides do I want to venture out into the sea do I want to go ashore would I be happy just staying put and allowing the cycles of the moon and the ocean control my fate? and this is where I will end it tonight!

Wednesday, December 27, 2006

random musing before end of year

I am just going to post this random rumination without any editing because no one reads these posts or this blog
and it really doesnt matter what I say or how I say it or even if it is "out there" for anyone to find by searching its
just atoms arranged due to a series of zeros and ones- ones won and zeros nothing - so you may have already won nothing
as a matter of fact if we could trace ourselves back to an absolute beginning it would be nothing but there is no way to express the absolute beginning of anything because that is the absolute beginning of everything if you believe that we are all made from the same stuff then to think of a moment of no stuff of non-stuff of a vaccuum is absurd we imagine a beginning or like this post we simply log in click on create a post and just start typing- so when we say a new year it is really just the other side of an imaginary mark made on our timeline on the spacetime continuium, time being a device used by us in a feeble attempt to try and conceive a now and a before now and and after now which after now, and after that fact the future is arriving with each key I press with each pause that occurrs when a synapse fires sending chemicals from a certain gland to my brain to a nerve to a tendon or muscle and bone telling the group of living organs bone flesh tissue to do something to press keys which produce the right secquence of zeroes and ones to imitate groupings of letters and the spaces and punctuation in between to express thoughts one side of the brain thinking of what it wants written (and what it wants to be edited) and the other side producing the action of course this is simply freeflowassociation so I am using my intuition and what my brain is choosing to remember in tandem as a reliable source for everything that I am claiming to be accurate....wait a minute why this need for truth or accuracy???? didnt someone find the late Gerald Ford to have changed the document on the findings of JFKs autopsy to agree with the warren commisions this means we know that we do not know and since he was the sole living member, perhaps he was the last to have known what might have been true or at least would have known one of the primary theories or possibilities of what could have happened back in dallas in late november of 1963. and the person who selected him to the warren commision was supposedly quoted as saying about Gerald Ford that he could not fart or chew gum at the same time. so by appointing someone whom you go on the record as saying is lets just say"unreliable" to find out who shot JFK.....well......that just guarantees obscurity. Yes. Maybe.
Or perhaps I am mistaken? perhaps the answer can be found when we go back to the absolute beginning and look over every single event which ever happened combing over every single detail no matter how trivial with a fine toothed hyper extreme comb. of course we could be here awhile before we really know anything say .......past the aoemeba stage......and that may take some time.....if we do not get sidetracked!!!!